Nate’s Place

Well, once again I am skipping what was going to be my scheduled entry for today to share the fact that I ran into an ex this morning on the way to work.  At least I’m 98% positive it was her.

I stopped off at a gas station approx a few miles away from work this morning (thank goodness gas prices are going down BTW) to fill my tank, and chose to walk inside to grab a cup of cheap coffee.

As I was filling my cup, I looked at the door and there Karen (or at least a duplicate clone of her walked in).  She looked exactly the same as I remembered her almost 7 years ago, although her hair was more blond today than the strawberry blond I once held between my fingers.  She even was wearing essentially the same style getup I remember back then too: white/cream pantyhose and a pleated skirt.

She looked good.  Whereas I may have gained a few pounds from my surgeries and have a little more grey in my hair today, she looked about the same, although I didn’t get to study her face at any length. 

For a moment I was thankful I was wearing my sunglasses as I was able to avoid direct eye contact, however, I have a sense she recognized me as well and didn’t know how to react.  I know I didn’t.  I didn’t get a lot of butterflies or icy cold veins…the adrenaline didn’t kick in….but I did remain silent.

I was tempted for a brief moment to turn around and say something, to say “Hi”, but now…I can’t even remember why we broke up.  It wasn’t a horrible breakup, but it wasn’t all peaches and cream either.  Like so many of my previous girlfriends, I really did and try to make them work and I really did have feelings for them…but more times than I’d like to admit we didn’t share the same outlook or personal habits.  The sex was good though.  She was a talented girl as I remember…not too shy in the bedroom and somewhat audible.  I also remember she was the first (and only) to perform the ‘popsicle’ on me as a surprise…something I know that was eye-popping to me the first time and I enjoyed it very much.  She was also quite skilled orally and always swallowed.  We filmed our own little private movie once and she was fond of taking 3 day fuck filled vacations with me. 

But I chose not to say anything today just in case it did bring up any odd feelings inside me.  Perhaps its better not to know how she is.  I heard a rumor once some time back she got married shortly after we broke up and had a child.  That was never substantiated if it were indeed fact as I know it is with Bella.

There are times I genuinely do miss Karen.  I don’t miss all of her baggage though.  Her sister was bad news, there was a lot of family drama back then and the one thing I do remember being happy it was over just so I wasn’t caught in the middle of the family antics.  Karen also wasn’t the nicest drunk in the world either.  She tended to be very ‘independant’ and ‘difficult’ when she got her drink on.

Needless to say it was a shocker this morning, but other than some pleasant memories of wild naked moments between us, I am oddly…..indifferent.